‘Kepoh’ is a Malay word which mean busy body. Being ‘kepoh’ is not really a good habit to have but sometimes it’s just how people show their care and concern. May be it’s not the most appropriate way to do it, but at least they have a good intention. Ok, so what is the connection between the topic and ‘kepoh’ ? Hmmm, not really sure myself, but I’ll try to link it as possible I can.
Being away from home is sometimes can be a little bit depressing and never doubt that little tiny bit of depress moment can lead to huge one! I miss my family, I miss my friends. There are so many things happen over there where I’m not in the picture. I missed the events here and there, and for this first 5 months, I already missed 2 weddings and I can’t imagine how many more wedding I can’t attend. Wedding is tiring, even though it not your wedding, but it is tiring. I know and I might be crazy when I mentioned I missed the wedding. Well, even though it’s tiring, be somehow I feel good every time I’m in the ceremony. Why?
I have a big family, and during this life event most of us will gather to celebrate and help with the ceremony. Yes, I know I’m not really anticipated in the conversation with my aunties, uncles or my cousins, but seeing them talking, laughing and making jokes I really really love it. Not just because they have weird and funny voices when they laugh, but it’s the sense of being in the family. Yes, it’s not because I missed the wedding so much but more of the people and the environment, the happy faces and most importantly my family.
Friends. Yes, I missed them and their gossips. Gossip is like their food, they can never live without it. Being away from them, I’m as well deprive from their gossips. It’s not all because of that, but most importantly, I found comfort in them and can always get a support when I need one, even sometime they come in very nasty word and tone that you feel you want to slap them in the face. Even so, it’s in the most sincere way, in their own style and only then you will reflect on it. I can never be like them as they are unique in their own way.
‘Kepoh’ and Life events. Yes, you have to be ‘kepoh’ to get into other people life event especially when they are far far way from you. It’s the only way to catch up with them, and even though you can’t be in the picture, but you will always know, you’ll be forever in their heart.
To live alone on my own, far away from my family is the thing that never ever crossed my mind. But as the opportunities come one by one, I guess it's worth trying and see what will happen next.
My first attempt was in 1999, when I decided to go to the boarding school in Segamat. Yes, it was a total failure, and I was back in JB 3 months after registered with the school. Surprisingly, in 2002 it was a successful second attempt to manage to survive 2 years in Muar Science School which is 178 km away from home. From here, the distance never ever getting less, but instead always keep going further and further away.
After completion of SPM in 2003, I pursued my A Levels course in KYUEM, Lembah Beringin and followed by IMU, Bukit Jalil where I completed my phase 1 of the medical course early this year. That was nine months ago. Today, while typing this entry, I'm pretty sure that readers are aware that I'm 10 773 km (+++++) away from home.
Eventhough with the experience living away from home, but to celebrate 1st Syawal far away from is totally a brand new experience. I can say, the routine of the first day is the same all over the world, but the environment is not. Here, the celebration is between you and friends yet indeed it was fun and exciting, but I felt something huge is missing this year. Being new to the place and the people, make it extra huge for me. Yes, this is what store for me for the next three years. Don't worry, as usual the course of time will change everything, and I hope it will be better in the future.
Some old and new faces in my life.
Mak and Abah
Tok Salleh and Mak Long
Tok We
Uncles and Aunties that never fails to give support!
Tok We, Tok Chu, Kak Pit and Family!
Friendsssss....
The Best of Friends!
Finally, complete!