When you Change your course of Objective....

It's really hard to admit one mistake, and can you imagine how hard it is to admit thousounds of it?
Why do people make mistakes, when they already know that is wrong? Why they want to repeat a mistake when they already been punished?

Pulling effect it's how I describe it, in addition of 'one door open and the previous one closed'. When you first open the 'mistake's door' it will usually remain open for you, and it's serves as two purposes. The first and most important reason is for you to return back and close it, which second reason to allow you being confident to find another door which lead to another mistake, and then it will close. Once you open the second door, there will be a pressure that keeping your open more door and lead to more mistakes. This will pull your deep into the mistakes and it's really hard for you to revert to the right path. It's not impossible, but it's definitely Hard!

Many reason can make you open the first door in the first place. If we go around the table, I believe everyone can come up with their own huge list. But what I'm going to mention is about your focus, your aim and your objective. Focus and objectives can be your source of motivation if it's been view from a different plane. When we loss it, we tend to stray away from the main reason or in other word we lost our direction. You will be anywhere between your starting point and your aim when you loss your objective. You will start doing anything unnecessary, wasting your time doing something that definitely wrong. You may be saying 'Hey, I'm just being my self. If it wrong, who cares?' Yes, you are right, it's not wrong to be your self, but I know that you know that it's wrong, and look around there are so many people care about you, no matter how far or close they are to you.

Believe me, it's killing you when you fall deep inside the unknowing room lead by many unknowing doors. You may feel happy for this instance, but in the long run, you will feel the pain.

Syawal 2009



To live alone on my own, far away from my family is the thing that never ever crossed my mind. But as the opportunities come one by one, I guess it's worth trying and see what will happen next.

My first attempt was in 1999, when I decided to go to the boarding school in Segamat. Yes, it was a total failure, and I was back in JB 3 months after registered with the school. Surprisingly, in 2002 it was a successful second attempt to manage to survive 2 years in Muar Science School which is 178 km away from home. From here, the distance never ever getting less, but instead always keep going further and further away.

After completion of SPM in 2003, I pursued my A Levels course in KYUEM, Lembah Beringin and followed by IMU, Bukit Jalil where I completed my phase 1 of the medical course early this year. That was nine months ago. Today, while typing this entry, I'm pretty sure that readers are aware that I'm 10 773 km (+++++) away from home.

Eventhough with the experience living away from home, but to celebrate 1st Syawal far away from is totally a brand new experience. I can say, the routine of the first day is the same all over the world, but the environment is not. Here, the celebration is between you and friends yet indeed it was fun and exciting, but I felt something huge is missing this year. Being new to the place and the people, make it extra huge for me. Yes, this is what store for me for the next three years. Don't worry, as usual the course of time will change everything, and I hope it will be better in the future.

Selamat Hari Raya....



Khutbah After the Prayer.


Me on the way back from the Hall.


Some old and new faces in my life.

2 September 2009...

A Day to Remember...

Good Bye is two simple words but are definitely hard to say it with meanings!
The moment will come for every one to say the words, and mine was on 2 September 2009.

As I'm embarking a journey of 10 773 km away from my beloved country Malaysia, the words are simply hard to be spoken out. The words always follow by tears especially from the loves ones.

Mak and Abah

Tok Salleh and Mak Long

Tok We

Uncles and Aunties that never fails to give support!

Tok We, Tok Chu, Kak Pit and Family!

Friendsssss....

The Best of Friends!

Finally, complete!